Sunday, May 26, 2013

A Week in the Life of a Canadian Living in Wuxi, China: May 20 to May 26, 2013.

Gratitude: Someone actually read my blog entries from start to finish. Wow!

Acknowledgment:  I am far too indulgent of my son Tony.  I am the one who keeps him up way past his bedtime with videos I download via torrents.

Requests:  Please visit the page I have dedicated to my father.  You can also visit my blog on May 28th and thereafter to read the piece, I am working on, to mark the first anniversary of his passing away. [News of the grave condition of my Aunt Dzidra may delay the publishing of my piece about my father.]

The AKIC Mission:  To be China's leading forum of  Gómez-Dávilism and reactionary intransigence, as well as a provocation to all of AKIC's enemies and critics.

The AKIC Motto:  Believe in God, trust in Christ, look with suspicion.

An AKIC Glossary
Gratitude: will always be the first word of the AKIC weekly blog entry -- it is the key to happiness.
Acknowledgment and Request:  For me Acknowledgment means confession; and Request means request.  GAR [Gratitude, Acknowledgment, Request] are the simple stages of a prayer which I came upon following the Jewish World Review site.  I used the GAR format when I delivered the eulogy at my father's funeral last year.

Jenny is my wife. She is a Jiangsu woman.

J: I will sometimes refer to her that way.

Tony is my son.  If he is annoying or acts way, way, way out-of-line, I will spank him.

T: I will sometimes refer to Tony this way.

TKIC: Tony Kaulins in China.  I may be referring to the TKIC blogs or to Tony when I use TKIC.  I  am sure you can figure out which way I am using it from the context.

AKIC:  Andis Kaulins in China.  The same applies to AKIC as applies to TKIC.  That is, I may be referring to the AKIC blogs or to myself.  AKIC aspires to be China's leading forum of  Gómez-Dávilism and reactionary intransigence.

My School is HyLite English located on Zhongshan Road in Wuxi, China.

Casa Kaulins is what I call the apartment I (really my wife) owns.

California Villa: The English name of the apartment complex the Kaulins family resides. In Chinese pinyin, it is called Jia Zhou Yang Fang.

Train-spotting.  There is a high speed train track running near Casa K.  Tony & I, when we have a chance, love to go there to watch the trains go by.

Wuxi:  The city where Jenny, Tony & I live.  I sometimes call it the Wux.

Hui Shan: The district of Wuxi in which we live.  Not to be confused with the Hui Shan Mountain that is in Xihui Park.

The Square:  The Hui Shan People's Square is nearby Casa Kaulins.

Central Park:  Hui Shan Central Park is the park closest to Casa Kaulins.  It has a playground area and a small lake with beach.  The park is nothing special.  The water in the lake is unbelievably foul.  The playground's fixtures are following apart.  The park is big enough that its narrow paths, that I would have thought were meant for pedestrians, have cars being driven on them.  The sight of these cars honking at pedestrians to get out their way disgusts me as much as the park's lake water.  Chinese people don't know how to drive and exhibit extreme selfishness when they get behind the steering wheel.

Hui Shan Wanda: A fancy shopping mall that is near Casa Kaulins.

Yanqiao: a town of Hui Shan District -- not too far from Casa Kaulins.

Jiangyin: A city or district next to Wuxi.

Meicun:  A suburb of Wuxi city that is far from the downtown.

Shuo Feng:  Ditto!

Ditto!  Agrees with what has been previously said.

LECTOR: I got the idea for Lector, a fictional sparring partner for my blog, from a Hilaire Belloc book I had read recently.

School Laptop:  I like to make note of where I make my notes for my weekly blog entry.  One of the four places is my school laptop.  The other three are: my home laptop, my Ipad Mini, and my Ipod Touch.

Python:  Some kind of script-writing computer program I am learning to use.

Atftb:  A thought for the blog.

Brandon, Manitoba, Canada is where my mother Aina lives. 
Winnipeg, Manitoba is where my brother Ron lives.
Minneapolis, Minnesota, USA is where some of my father's relatives live.

Bao Bao Sleepy:  What Tony calls it when he sleeps in Daddy's arms or on Daddy's lap.

David Warren:  I visit his website about five times a day.  He a fervent Catholic and reactionary.  If I model myself after anyone, it would be him.

Don Colacho:  A South American sage.  He died in 1993.  He would have been 100 in 2013.  I read his aphorisms everyday.  He is the consummate reactionary.

Father Schall: I am always reading the site of his which has a huge collection of his writings.

English Corner:  I go to a room and try to talk to a group of Chinese people in English.  Often, they don't understand me.

HM:  Harry Moore is from Brisbane Australia.  He had a brief stint as an English teacher at my school.  He sends me emails occasionally.  He was my partner in crime in my notorious Wuxi China Expatdom Blog.  He suffered a stroke recently but he still heroically plugs away.
The AKIC Week in Brief:  Not much happened this week, till Sunday.  The week had been so devoid of meaning and purpose that I filled my daily journals not so much with actual events but with thoughts that came to me.  Sunday was a day of reflection for me. I received news of the grave condition of my Aunt Dzidra. That news combined with the approaching anniversary of my father's death on Tuesday [May 28] made Sunday a day of reflection.

About Me (Andis):

I am in China!   在我的youku,一个中国 写得这个:生了个bastard,失败的白人,在他们国家找不到老婆。 (引文的翻译: Wife gave birth Bastard, the failed White, not found in their country

Politically I am Conservative/Reactionary!  In my younger days, I was a Lefty but I smartened up.  Now, I find it hard to say where exactly I would fall on the right wing  of the political spectrum.  Some of the political thinkers I admire don't completely agree with the others I admire.  For example, I like John Derbyshire who is an atheist and no admirer of George Bush the second; I like David Warren who is a fervent Catholic and a critic of capitalism and a Medievalist; I like Victor David Hansen who defends what George Bush the second did in his two terms as President; and I like Thomas Sowell who is a great defender of Capitalism.  I love FA Hayek who wrote an article entitled Why I am not a Conservative.  Certainly, it is easier for me to state without ambiguity, the political things I hate like Leftism, Fascism, Marxist-Leninism, Scientism, Liberal-Progressivism, Socialism and Keynesianism.  Current political figures I don't like include Obama, Pelosi, Reid and Krugman.

I am Canadian!  What Canadian things have I done this week?  I said eh! in class.  The students didn't know what I was talking about.

I teach English!  Or should I say Me teach English?

I like to Read!  Here is what I am reading this week:
Don Colacho's Aphorisms:  There are 2,988 of them in this book that I compiled myself.  I read ten aphorisms at a time.  I cut and paste the better ones -- they are all profound actually -- and I put them in my weekly blog entry.
Ulysses by James Joyce:  I am following along with   Frank Delaney as he slowly guides podcast listeners through Joyce's hard-to-read novel.  Delaney figures he will have done his last ReJoyce Podcast in about 22 years.  Now that I have caught up to Delaney's podcast (he completed episode #154 this week), I am getting ahead him as far as reading the book.  I will be finished reading it, I figure, in a year.

The Holy Bible King James Version:   I am reading a chapter a day of the greatest book of all-time.  I am now reading the Acts of the Apostles.
University Economics:  Elements of Inquiry Third Edition by Armen A. Alchian and William R. Allen:   A great Economics textbook. 
The Hobbit by JR Tolkien.    Finished. For whatever reason, I hadn't read this book before.  I managed to snag an e-book copy of the  book on the Internet after hearing of the release of the movie  But it was reading Father Schall's praising of Tolkien that really inspired me to read the Hobbit.  Tolkien, says Schall, is more than just the creator of the genre of Fantasy fiction. The book is wonderful and I can see how the film-makers will make two more movies out of it.

On Something by Hilaire Belloc.  Whatever David Warren or Father Schall mention a book, I seem to end up reading it.  Father Schall's articles, which can be found here, I read on my dotdotdot app: a social app where one can read long form articles in a e-book format.

I like to take photos
I publish them in the following blogs:   AKIC wordpress , TKIC blogspot  and TKIC wordpress .

I like to make videos

I like to cut and paste quotations:

Every week, I cut and paste a lot of Don Colacho:
2241 Even small-town grudges are more civilized than the mutual indifference of big cities.
2249 It is easier to be compassionate than it is not to feel envy.

From Belloc's On Something:  “Yes, yes, I know," said King Philip impatiently, "I have heard it a thousand times! It has already persuaded me to abandon the duodecimal method and to consign to the severest tortures any one who mentions it in my presence again.  My ten fingers are good enough for me. Go on, go on!” [I find this hilarious.]

From an article in Taki's Magazine:  Having kids is like moving to China. You can’t go, “Ew, it’s way too Chinese here” and move back when winter hits. You have to dig in your heels, learn the language, and make it work. [I have done both things: move to China and have a kid.  I can't say that I have done either of those things very well, but I am the least likely person I know who is here to complain that it is too Chinese here.]

From a David Warren blog entry: There are no social advantages to being Christian any more; & pretending to be Catholic would be quite ludicrously counter-productive to any person on the make, trying to steal ahead in business or politics. [This blog has never advanced my cause, I am happy to say.]

I like to keep a journal of my daily activities and any thoughts that occur to me.

Monday [May 20]
[Home Laptop] 
I don't work today.  I am going to fart around the computer till Tony comes back from school.

I made a GUI where clicking on Tony's photo gets one to the website I have dedicated to him.

Someone Chinese made the following comments on my channel:  生了个bastard,失败的白人,在他们国家找不到老婆。 (English TranslationWife gave birth Bastard, the failed White, not found in their countryWhat can I say?  My wife was a third daughter who wasn't valued in a culture that would rather have boys.

I made and then uploaded Scenes from My Life in Wuxi, China #39 to Youku.

Tuesday [May 21]
[Home Laptop]
I've just sent Tony off to school.  He was wearing a yellow outfit. 

I work 1300 to 2100.  So I can spend more of the morning at Casa K where I will do some Chinese flashcard study and hang laundry.

I downloaded a new version of Vuze, the torrent downloading program, last night.  I don't like it but I suppose I will get used to it.  I have noticed I also don't like the latest versions of the Youtube Channel Page and the Gmail compose.

[School Laptop]
I didn't get as much done at home as I wanted to because little chores kept popping up like laundry in the washing machine needing to be hung and J asking me to vacuum the floor.

A bit of affection in the morning is always good.  I came to work in a calm and peaceful mood.

I have looked at 1,000 Chinese flashcards today.  I recognized about 79 percent of them, I figure.

It is hot and smoggy outside.  I will happily stay in my office.

I suppose I should go prep my classes now.  It is slow today.  Apparently the students are in school taking exams.

I will take a week off in June.  J and I haven't decided what we are going to do with the time, but we have talked about traveling .  The wife wants to spend time in Shanghai or Zhejiang province.  It is all good to me!

I have been downloading, via torrent, as many episodes of Shaun the Sheep and Fireman Sam as I can find.

When I was putting together the Scenes from My Life in China #39 video, I downloaded the video I took from my Ipod Touch onto my laptop.  The video, I had taken where I was walking towards the Ipod which was propped at ground level, came out upside down on my laptop.  This was an easy problem to fix but watching the upside down video, I saw that from that perspective, my gait seemed ridiculous and comical.  Upside-down, I looked like I was walking in mud or in gravity.  My foot leaving the surface of the earth, looked like it was pulling hard against a rubber band suspending it to the ground.  Right-side up, the video shows my gait to be normal and unremarkable.

Python programming with GUI's is such a headache.  The difference between versions of Python is really coming out in all the code I have seen.  Sometimes, I just don't have the modules I need.  And the code just doesn't seem very intuitive to me.  I cut and paste it, and hope for the best.  So far, only the worst is happening.

Wednesday [May 22]
[Home Laptop]
I didn't sleep well last night.  I was up at one point, two a.m., reading a book.  I was thinking about how Don Colacho was said to be reading books till all hours in the morning.  I wish I could do that but I find that I can read a book past midnight -- I don't have the energy to carry on.

Consequently, I was awake at 710 this morning which is oversleeping for me.

I will have to slog my way through the morning.  

David Warren wrote a superb obit for his latest blog entry.  I wish I could rise to his level in the piece I am planning to publish on the anniversary of my father's death.  I also reflect on reading the obit, that no one is going to write an obit about me.  The subject of Warren's obit was an aloof man but he possessed some charm.  I have taken on an aloof posture because I don't have what it takes to have close relationships with others, and there is an element of bitterness in the aloofness, I will admit.  Despite the put-down of myself, the bitterness is not so much directed at the people I know as it is directed to the fact that I never meet an many interesting characters amenable to me as Warren has meet in his life.  Warren knew people with whom he didn't have to hold something back.  I always feel like a phony in my dealings with others I can't talk about the things that fervently interest me.

I will do an English Corner about the letter V this afternoon.

I am not sure to go with my Python study.  I find that the GUI aspects of the language are causing me headaches.

It is HM's birthday today.  I must send him an email.

I must remind myself that as important as it is for me to do my personal tasks such as study Chinese everyday, the things I should do for other people, like send them emails, should be a higher priority.

If I ever lack in something to acknowledge for my GAR section at the top, I only need ask J and she will tell me what I am doing wrong.  For she made me realize I indulge Tony too much.

Imagine a kind of rich, delicious dessert food that you can eat and not get fat.  Would such a food be a thing we should desire?  I would think not because I believe that being able to escape consequences means one would in the end face worse consequences.  Something who likes chocolate could eat it all day and not do other things that the shame of eating too much chocolate and being fat would have forced them to do like exercise, leave the dessert table and deal with the people in one's life.

[School Laptop]
I work 1300 to 2100 today.

On the bus to work this morning, I saw the Wuxi Metro train parked at tracks at the Wuxi Metro Train Yard.  It had been  parked there for two days in a row.

I had a hard time explaining what this sentence meant: Victor admires Victoria's virtues.

Thursday [May 23]
[School Laptop]
I work 1000 to 2100 today.

We have to get Tony a bed of his own.  He kicked me in the head three times during the night.

My vacation will be June 22 to June 28.  It looks like we won't be taking a trip anywhere.  Tony will be finishing his kindergarten and the school is planning all sorts of events for it.  I can't recall if we had some sort of ceremony to mark the end of my kindergarten days.  Anyway, I don't see the point of these ceremonies.  I don't see the point of being told, in a fancy way, that it is time for you cattle to move on.  If I had it my way, Tony would take the week off and we would go on a trip.  However, J tells me that she has already signed off with the kindergarten about the ceremonies.  She looks at me uncomprehendingly when I tell her that I don't see the point of the ceremonies.

I didn't bother going to my graduation ceremonies from University.  I didn't feel like I had accomplished anything. And anyway, these times are usually opportunities for university administrators to congratulate themselves as they prod the herd of graduates to pick up their pieces of paper.

When Tony goes to primary school next year, he may be wearing one of those red scarves.  I wish he wouldn't.  The Maoist-inspired Khmer Rouge wearing similar scarves, of a checkered red and white pattern, committed genocide on their people.

From despair to contentment; from contentment to despair.  My moods fluctuate today.

If I hear shouts, fireworks, and other sounds of todo, I won't bother inquiring into what happened.  There is no point.  It is all just going to be whatever...

Friday [May 24]

Able to maintain sexiness in stressful situations

Are those pillows?  No Darling!  Those are your buttocks!

Are we going to watch the Bears game?  Of course not.

[School Laptop]
I work 1100-2100 today.  I get to school at 920.  Am I dedicated?  No.

On the bus TV, I saw images of the man with blood on his hands waving a meat cleaver that he used to cut apart a British soldier.  He was performing for the passersby who had pulled out their phone cameras.  One thing in the video I saw that irked me was a pedestrian walking pass him.  It reminded me of the video of the little girl in China who had been run over by a van and was ignored by a whole slew of passersby.  The other thought I had about the video was how Americans could crow at the incident like Brits crow at some gun massacre that happens in America.  After all, if at least one British citizen had a gun, they could have taken those ghouls down.  It would have been nice if the citizens could have helped the victim.  The victim instead had to put his safety in the hands of the government police forces who took twenty minutes to arrive.  And Europeans don't understand why Americans don't trust the government....

I am going to use my Ipad in my movie salon class.  I have lot of flashcards and images loaded up, so I figure I might as well use the damn thing for work.

I don't talk to creeps, unless I absolutely have to.

What star would play AKIC in a future major studio AKIC bio-pic?  As rare readers know, there are many sides to AKIC; and so there isn't an actor on the planet with a wide enough range to portray AKIC.  Therefore, a troupe of major actors would have to play AKIC.  AKIC would prefer that none of the current crop of pretty boy actors appear in the AKIC bio pic.  So no Brad Pitt or Leo Decrapio. AKIC would prefer that previous crops of male actors who looked male and adult to portray him.  Unfortunately, these actors are old or dead.  In an ideal universe or in heaven, the AKIC Bio Pic cast of actors to portray AKIC would include Steve McQueen, Charles Bronson, Leslie Nielson, George Kennedy, Clint Eastwood, James Caan, Montgomery Clift, John Wayne, Fred Astaire, Harry Moore, Gary Cooper, Anthony Quinn, Alec Guinness, Jimmy Stewart, Lee Van Cleft, Rod Steiger, and James Coburn.

A student tells me that she is going to Bangladesh for three months.

You don't know what they know and what they don't know.

No English Speaker would ever say that!

In my Python language programming,  I am having trouble with GUIs.

Drats!  I left my IPad on and so as I sit on the 635, I have to play on my Ipod.  I was reading at supper time and forgot to turn the machine off.

I did a Duane Thomas today. [LECTOR: Wasn't that the Dallas Cowboy running back from the very early 1970s?]

Sheep the Shaun. [LECTOR:  That should be Shaun the Sheep.]

Nothing happening so I am resorting to writing down whatever thoughts come to mind.

Nothing comes to mind.

Wanda Plaza, oh so bright, will open soon but not tonight.

Saturday[May 25]
[School Laptop]
Familiarity breeds contempt.

I work 1000 to 1800 today.  Actually, 1000 to 1700.  I don't have a 1700 class.  

Let's teach 'em and get out of here!

This is a blog of provocations.  I put things in just to see what bites.

How I wish I was crazy.  Unfortunately, the truth of the matter is that being crazy is not a good thing, and I could never fully convince myself that I was something that I wasn't like a chicken or a figure of importance. [LECTOR:  Really!  You are just pathetic.  Andis:  Thank you very much]

We, that be T, J & I, may be going to Ikea for the second Saturday in a row.  I don't want to because it means two hours of sitting on or waiting for the bus.  However, we need to buy a bed for Tony so we should go.  Why do we need a bed?  It is easier to beat up Tony when he is tied to a bed his size.  [LECTOR: Not funny!  You need your head examined!]

[Home Laptop]
Weiners and Hot Dogs for supper. Yes!

Where can I put the leftover meatballs? I ask my wife. On your head! J says. My effort to help was perceived to be what it truly was – a pathetic attempt to make up for the fact that I hadn't helped my wife clean up.

The Pope talks like the Devil exists. I am fighting devils all the time. They seem to come into my mind as soon as I read nice thoughts.

AKIC: Tony are you are a nice guy? TKIC: Yes. AKIC: Can I have my Ipad? TKIC: No. AKIC: What?!? TKIC: I say no! AKIC: Oh...

Why is it that the people who complain the most about being screwed by their employer, have the worst work ethic?

Hooray! Ottawa was eliminated from the NHL playoffs. Who beat them? Who cares! The important thing is that the Senators lost.

Currently, McDonald's is giving away a bottle of Hand Sanitizer with breakfast purchases over 10 rmb. Currently, I have amassed five bottles.

AKIC: Who is the most popular person in China? Student: Xi Jing Ping. AKIC: Really? Student: Maybe.

I saw that some of students attending flight attendant school came to our school today. [LECTOR: Why did you bother mentioning that? ANDIS: Shhhh!]

Survey person phones a Chinese household and asks: Do you approve of the job Xi Jing Ping is doing? The person answering the phone says “Of course!”

I am trying to get this blog entry to be of such a length that it takes up ten typed pages in a word processor.

Sunday [May 26]
[Home Laptop]
I don't work today. Sunday is the day of the week when I devote myself fully, in theory, to Tony. He tells me he wants to go to Ikea. I am not keen on the idea, but at the same time I have no strong or indignant objections to going. It depends on J as to whether we will go or not. The weather may also play a part in the decision, as well, as the outside is all wet from the rain that fell last night. The sky is overcast now with a strong sun breaking through, and it is windy. J is going to wake up late this morning and there is no point in attempting to wake her up and ask if we will go.

Mosquitoes plague sleepers in Wuxi at this time of year. Yesterday, I had a student complain to me about them during one of my class's warm-up moments where I do a round of how-are-you-doing with the class. She couldn't sleep, she said, because the mosquitoes were buzzing and biting her all night, making her feel – I had to supply her with the word – “itchy.” Casa Kaulins has screen windows – a thing that many Wuxi homes don't have, but the screens don't prevent all the wenzi from coming in. To combat the Casa K wenzi, the Kaulins family has a killing racquet. Through the night an attack of a buzzing wenzi will cause one of us to make an all-lights-on command in order that we can search the little invader down. They aren't easy to spot, these wenzi, unless they decide to rest, out in the open, on a wall.

Last night, T&A made a brief foray out of the apartment so AKIC could buy drinks at the nearby small shop. AKIC had then opportunity to see that the heat was forcing many of the store keepers and their patrons to go outside of their establishments. The scene was not in anyways akin to patrons sitting outside their cafes on the streets of Paris. The locals were seated on low plastic chairs eating and drinking off low plastic tables more suited for youngsters than adults.

945 am: I have just received an update from my mother about her eldest sister, my Aunt Dzidra. Dzidra is not doing very well. Dzidra lives in Winnipeg, and my mother will visit her in the hospital to say good bye. At times like this, I feel like a selfish bastard for deciding to come to China. I wish I could be there.
News about Dzidra has made me go back into my “archives” for photos I might have of Dzidra. I found some, but while looking I saw the photos of my time spent in Brandon at the times of my father's death which made the event seem all too fresh.

[Ipad Mini]
The Dali Lama is a lefty's wet dream, it is said, when the lefties aren't admiring the unbridled power that the Chicoms have. Here is a conservative's perspective on him. I haven't thought about him recently till I came upon the article. I have read his autobiography, and I remember him saying that Communism seemed like a good idea in theory, and that he loved his dogs. I don't doubt for a second that the Dali Lama is a decent man, and it would be tragic to see his legacy in Tibet done in by crony-capitalism. But alas like the saint Nielson Mandela, his rule over his country would have served to be just as tragic as Mandela has turned out to be.

Tony has taken over the laptop so he can watch fireman videos on YouTube. So I tap my thoughts on the Ipad.

I paid off all my debts before I came to China. I worked my ass off to do so. One year, I worked every day but Christmas. They weren't glamorous jobs. I was just a plug. But that was how I was able to come to China. [I have heard that a few have come here to evade having to pay their loans.]

I don't think we will be going to Ikea today.

We won't be going to Ikea.

Radio Derb Podcast:  in the latest episode, mention was made of the 1955 film Oklahoma!  Derb said it was a hit in England at the time.  It showed Americans,  especially of the mid-western type, in a good light. [A film that shows the English at their finest is The Dam-busters.]. I was fortunate to come across a DVD copy of Oklahoma! when browsing through a stack at a Wuxi DVD shop.  It was a film to be watched repeatedly.  I loved  the songs and the dancing.  Watching it now is a counter-cultural statement.  Probably, starting in the 1960s, the film was seen as square and something one's grandparents would like.  Too bad, people thinking such things about musicals are restricting themselves.  The modern leftist tendency is to sneer at anything with a hint of joy to it -- something can only be good to them if it increases their sense of self-regard and coolness.  A favorite scene from the movie occurs at the barn-raising dance.  The song for the scene was Ranchers & Farmers should be friends.  A brawl between the farmers and the ranchers is broken up by a pistol-toting granny.  To me the scene is the epitome of all that lefties hate:  strong traditional woman, guns, and civilized values.  How more civilized the world would be if real women had guns.  Woman’s traditional roles have been to make men less brutish.  Feminists instead think women should imitate men.  The results?  Nancy Pelosi and Hilary Clinton, to name a few.  Woman of those ilk -- female gargoyles, if you will are a sickening sight to anyone who admires true femininity.  The fact that Bill Clinton got away with his infidelities is proof that Hilary isn't a woman, but a sexless being who made a cynical decision to grab power for herself.

Besides making listening to a Radio Derb Podcast, I am also trying to make my way through the film Zorba the Greek.  Zorba, as played by Anthony Quinn [not the Anthony I was thinking of when I named my son], is an attractive figure.  Watching the film, I am experiencing what I would call  temporary role-model imitation (TRMI) fever.  That is, where the performance of an actor makes one want to imitate the ways of the character.  Zorba is a man with gusto.  He is not held back and acts how he feels and says what he thinks.  So he is violent and loving and daring and full of cheer as his emotions dictate.  I wish I could be that way.  A younger Andis under the influence of TRMI fever, actually thought he could modify his character to be exactly like the performer he had seen.  Now, AKIC knows it can't be and that the indifference of the Cosmos would sharply rebuff any attempt at a performance of a “hidden” character trait.  AKIC now thinks of what he has in common with the character being performed.  What does AKIC have in common with Zorba?  Andis has a gusto for self-defeating behavior.

Most self-defeating behavior ever exhibited by a human being?  Jesus Christ.  Alas, AKIC is really stretching it to think he has any gusto for anything.

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